After few months this wud be my first entry.. I dun know what else to do now. So much of things happened in my life for the past few months. Btw, the good news is i'm no longer a student anymore. Still in Fridays but as a bartender now. Maybe who know i have my future there exactly like my idol my manager Miss Mei.. Hope so la. Just wanna prove my mum that fnb is my line and my passion. :) Today i'm feeling kinda down cuz my soul mate Mango is in deep shit.. All that i want is to be beside her and lend my shoulder to her to cry on... I'm sorry baby.. We're too far. I'm gonna wait fer u to come back. Ur my bestie.. Everything happens, happens for a reason.. Your future yet to come. You'll find someone better then him. Like me basically. Haha. I like her.. But its all over... Too early to end actually.. Known her less then 3 months and she makes me like her less than a month or so.. Haha. Shes taken thou.. Her smile can drive me crazy... Lol! I'm sorry that i fell for you.. I cant help the feelings when i see u.. I'll always will be there if u need me "S".. Regarding everything. Doesn't matter to me as long as we talk to each other. I'll get used to it and get over it soon. Life routine now is wake up get ready for work and work my ass off and drink and smoke and go back home sleep and the same shit repeats everyday.. Arggghhh. I hope she's always gonna be around..Work there a lil longer so that i can see her... I'm acting all weird..... God! I luv you "S"! Forgive me for that.. I'm just gonna go play some online games and go to sleep. Tired of this lifeline.

Back here. =)

Okay sweet lovey dovey blog, sorry for leaving you for almost 2 months plus. I'm just busy with life. *SIGH*
So its totally over. She's gone. Haha. For what u've done to me u'll get it back baby. I'll just sit back and watch. =) I'm not being mean just stating the truth. Hehehe. You're out of my chapter! Okay now i have a life where i should concentrate for my self and my family and friends. I just hate that PSP. Its a fucked up place. Haihhhh. Miss Terengganu so freakin damn muchhhh. Miss Memey, Hada, Hana, Ema, Dilla, Mira, Myza, Maizatun (Kecik lagi chomel!), Yana, Syaro semua2 laaa! Nak datang T'ganu! Sye tak lupa kowg tau. Ade je budak yg lupa kat sye. >.< Memey la katakan. Mana nak igt kwn lama. =D Awak eahhhh igt2 la sye nie... ImissyouIDIOT! Whatever it is im gonna go meet someone now. Its her breaktime nowwww. Hehe.  Work is my passion my world my life! And to you people who dumped me, "i know im way too cute to be with you guys thats why u guys took the shortest cut by going away!" hakhakhak! Sorry la im no longer the same NADY. I dont give a Fu*k about anything anymore. So get the hell outta my world bitches! =p

Look at me now..

Its just unbelievable.. After soooo long tonyte i'm writing again..

I'm tired of everything actually.. Tired of all the people around me. 
Tired of listening to them. I feel numb at times. 

When i went back to Friday's, there's whole lots of people that

comfort me everyday.. Listens to me everyday talking about you..

But there's a guy who i respect the most thought me this..

"LIFE HAVE TO GO ON NADY, WITH OR WITHOUT HER"

He talks alotttttt. He was there exactly like my bestie Mango!

He speaks from his experience which make me think thousand time should i stop all the crap or just ignore.. But i do listen to him.

I had fun with my frens everyday.. Just to get over it..

But will never forget. Those memories are precious to me.. 

I did saw you and we did talk a lil... But did'chu realize that the

whole time i didn't look into your eyes even once?

I'm too scared.. That i might fall and die right in front of you..

But ur wonderful.. =) Glad that u came into my life..

Glad that i got the chance to fall in love with you..

After all we're friends now in good talking terms as you wanted.

Happy for you no matter what you do no matter where you are..

Remember that once we did collide. =) AND my sincere

THANKS to Mr.Shresh and Mangla for everything...

If you guys not around I'm pretty sure everyone knows where

i'll end up. Haha. What a life mannnnn! 

Two different world collide and now its back on the track! 

I'll always love you..

No regrets..

At times people was in the situation that leeds us to make a wrong decision. When the right time come, then we'll realize what we've messed up. What we've let go. At that moment you'll be trying so hard to fit in and just to have one more chance to make it work.. Because you know that the decision you make was actually the guide to the right one.. In life every person that have loved someone truely and still hold it high and making the way to make things perfect again deserves a second chance. A pure heart deserves a second chance.. Even thou it seems hopelessly no chance.. Try and try and try, cuz it might hit at the right place again. =) If you din try to fight for it, just incase one day you turn back to look what you've done you would have regrets and that moment you'll say 'Damn, I should have give it a try I should have fight for it!'

Promises..

Promises are meant to be broken..

You promised to never let me go.. and every little promises u made to me..
Baby, they're still fresh on my mind. I never wish we'll be apart. All those time was the best time in my life.. At last, i'm just what you will never need anymore. After so hard you change my mind you open my heart and so hard for me to be with you, and ur pushing me away like i'm a trash. Whatever happens to 'i'll never let you go no matter what.' For every second i'm with you, deep down my heart I just pray so hard 'Please hold me tight and never let me go for the rest of my life'. If I lied thru the first time it wouldn't affect me this much. I would have find another and moved on. I wont be on my knees begging you please. After all that I said and told its still a NO, and I got to go just to make you know how much love I would still show.

*Greetings From Pearl Island!*

I'm home peeps! Okay freak lets get back on the TRACK! Lol. Haha. 

p/s : I was asleep in the bus and all of a sudden woke up in rush cause i can feel her, and was HELL SHOCK to see the bus is exactly at Batu Uban. Goshhhhh! Its like i seriously can feel it baby.. I'm not lying..

 Grrrrrrrrr. Was kinda scary thou.

And i'm in my wonderful room which is full of our memories! 

Nothing can be compared to the feeling of being in YOUR ROOM. 

Hehe. And to my stubborn room mate, [youknowwhoyouare] go clinic you idiot!

My absence have no impact on anybody. Trust me, ur just bored because 

u didn't hear my super duper loud voice shouting, laughing, yelling and talking! That's all. Anyway anyhow, i do miss my housemates. Thanks a dozen for last nyte. And *awak jangan nangis*. Hehe. I'm not good in showing my sadness. Awrite, the sun is up and my bed is calling my name. 

Byeeee. Nyte nyteee. =D

Happy Burfday Raz!

Heyyyy! Today's my best friends burfday! I've known you for 8 years plus thou. Din realize we make it this far! LOL! Anyway, this is what i can give you rite now so, HAPPY BURFDAY BESTIE! I LOVE YOU! Hope our relation can last until maybe i'm dead? Errrr, idk. Let hope for the best okay?? May god bless you always and wish you luck for everything in ur life. And remember i'm always here for you. NO MATTER WHAT! Hey, btw this is your last teenage burfday. Have a blast!!!! Take care always. May you follow your dream and always believe in yourself. Keep your eyes on the stars and hope in your heart. 

Thanks for being a GEM OF A FRIEND to me!