No regrets..

At times people was in the situation that leeds us to make a wrong decision. When the right time come, then we'll realize what we've messed up. What we've let go. At that moment you'll be trying so hard to fit in and just to have one more chance to make it work.. Because you know that the decision you make was actually the guide to the right one.. In life every person that have loved someone truely and still hold it high and making the way to make things perfect again deserves a second chance. A pure heart deserves a second chance.. Even thou it seems hopelessly no chance.. Try and try and try, cuz it might hit at the right place again. =) If you din try to fight for it, just incase one day you turn back to look what you've done you would have regrets and that moment you'll say 'Damn, I should have give it a try I should have fight for it!'

Promises..

Promises are meant to be broken..

You promised to never let me go.. and every little promises u made to me..
Baby, they're still fresh on my mind. I never wish we'll be apart. All those time was the best time in my life.. At last, i'm just what you will never need anymore. After so hard you change my mind you open my heart and so hard for me to be with you, and ur pushing me away like i'm a trash. Whatever happens to 'i'll never let you go no matter what.' For every second i'm with you, deep down my heart I just pray so hard 'Please hold me tight and never let me go for the rest of my life'. If I lied thru the first time it wouldn't affect me this much. I would have find another and moved on. I wont be on my knees begging you please. After all that I said and told its still a NO, and I got to go just to make you know how much love I would still show.

*Greetings From Pearl Island!*

I'm home peeps! Okay freak lets get back on the TRACK! Lol. Haha. 

p/s : I was asleep in the bus and all of a sudden woke up in rush cause i can feel her, and was HELL SHOCK to see the bus is exactly at Batu Uban. Goshhhhh! Its like i seriously can feel it baby.. I'm not lying..

 Grrrrrrrrr. Was kinda scary thou.

And i'm in my wonderful room which is full of our memories! 

Nothing can be compared to the feeling of being in YOUR ROOM. 

Hehe. And to my stubborn room mate, [youknowwhoyouare] go clinic you idiot!

My absence have no impact on anybody. Trust me, ur just bored because 

u didn't hear my super duper loud voice shouting, laughing, yelling and talking! That's all. Anyway anyhow, i do miss my housemates. Thanks a dozen for last nyte. And *awak jangan nangis*. Hehe. I'm not good in showing my sadness. Awrite, the sun is up and my bed is calling my name. 

Byeeee. Nyte nyteee. =D

Happy Burfday Raz!

Heyyyy! Today's my best friends burfday! I've known you for 8 years plus thou. Din realize we make it this far! LOL! Anyway, this is what i can give you rite now so, HAPPY BURFDAY BESTIE! I LOVE YOU! Hope our relation can last until maybe i'm dead? Errrr, idk. Let hope for the best okay?? May god bless you always and wish you luck for everything in ur life. And remember i'm always here for you. NO MATTER WHAT! Hey, btw this is your last teenage burfday. Have a blast!!!! Take care always. May you follow your dream and always believe in yourself. Keep your eyes on the stars and hope in your heart. 

Thanks for being a GEM OF A FRIEND to me!

Coming back!

Well, 3 papers down. 1 more to go. But its still a week away so i can GO BACK HOME! Haha. Miss my room, MY KITTENS, my family, my frens and MISS HERRRRRR! =D kinda excited to go back to hometown lol. *giggles* i went through the wall post and comments between me and her. From the first day till the last day. My room mates was like "Why are you giggling all the while?". Those days really put a smile on my face. I can feel the happiness just like it happened yesterday. =) But cant believe u went away. Well, my bad. And btw, i found out i have a new hobby aswell! Grrrrrr! Hakhak. Reading our conversations again and again and again and  again!!! That's all from Terengganu! Tomorrow, new entry from PEARL ISLAND! I'm kinda amused but i have no idea why. *shakes head* byeeeeeeee!

=)

Its crazy how i view your profile almost 100 times a day but i dun talk to you even a single word. Just to see what were you up to. Silence is the language of love. Even if it hurts. I still love you and luving you even deeper each and every day. I cant move on. I'm sorry. I'm fine, don't worry. You move on, and turn back at times and look at me from far, u'll still see me smiling at you. =) Just like the first day you turned back at me and smiled. Nobody knows what i feel inside for every moment, every hour, every minute and every seconds i'm with you. All that i know is i love you TV! If a hug represented how much I loved you, I would hold you in my arms forever...

My Favorite..

"WHAT EACH KISS MEANS"

- Kiss on the Forehead: We're cute together .

- Kiss on the Cheek: We're friends.

- Kiss on the Hand: I adore you.

- Kiss on the Neck: I want you, now.

- Kiss on the Shoulder: Your perfect.

- Kiss on the Lips: I LOVE YOU...

"WHAT EACH GESTURE MEANS"

- Holding Hands: We definitely like each other.

- Holding you tight pressed against each other: I want you.

- Looking into each other's Eyes: I like you, for who you are.

- Playing with Hair: I'm addicted to you!

- Arms around the Waist: I like you too much to let go.

- Laughing while Kissing: I am completely comfortable with you.

ADVICE:

- If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you're definitely in Love.

"WHILE READING THIS SHE'S THE ONLY ONE ON MY MIND"

~Iluvyou~

I cant stop loving you....

I just cant seems to study at all even thou tomorrows my finals. 

Been trying really hard, but there's only you on my mind.

People might think i'm so happy go lucky and crazy,

but who knows aite what im going thru.

Yeah, i'm really good in hiding the truth and my feelings.

Haha. At times im like "I'm really fine!" which i told myself thousand times a day

and at time "Life is just so fucked up damn it!"

Well, difficult times.. each and every person have their

own problems, so why do i hefta burden them with mine rite?

I used to tell my best friend everything, but she have a life man!

Decided not to spill it to anybody..

and the best way is by this piece of shit.

I can crap anything i want and it just reflect exactly the same. 

Hehe. Since the day she left me, my world shattered to pieces..

I never intend to do those things to her. Like seriously never..

I'm too playful and yeah like she said its because of me why she's gone now.

Its been 87days.. Without her.. 

I don't know what to do, what to say and how to act anymore..

EVERYTHING that i do reminds me of her...

How does she aspect me to "move on"??

I cant gurl.. I told you earlier, once i love you i will never stop..

And i swear its forever, because i never met anyone like her..

No one luvs me like she did..

No one wants me like she wanted me..

No one cares for me like she cared for me..

No one willing to do anything for me like she did to me..

And the list could go on...

She's my first love..

Before i met her, i'd never fallen in love.

I stepped in it a few times.

But that was just affection.. 

End of the story, I could never forget her..

Can never stop loving her.. 

With love *baby dinosaur*

~One Last Try~

Let me start by saying baby I've been such a fool

Since we've been apart I've realized I'm needing you

Now I don't blame you if you choose to turn and walk away

But girl I think that what we have is worth another day..

Can we try

To get it back right

And I promise I will never leave your side

Cos you're

All that I need

And I know right here with you is where I wanna be..

Girl its been far too long

And I just cant go on

Need you in these arms

For one last try

Girl just hear me out

Cos all I'm asking for is

ONE LAST TRY...

Tell me baby why you wanna act this way

It seems crazy girl after all the love we made

I know I made a mistake when I went away

Now my nights are cold since we don't share this bed no more..

So tell me what I gotta do

To bring you back my way

Don't want no one else touching you, holding you

Baby MY HEART ain't complete

You got me all up on my knees

Cos I don't wanna lose your love...

Can't Live Without You...

You're always on my mind, day and night 

When I think of you, all feels so right 

Need to have you, need to hold you 

And tell you that I love you. 

My dear, I don't want to see us apart 

This separation just tears away my heart 

I miss you, I really miss you 

Will need you more and more each day 

I know I cannot live without you 

I miss you, more than words can say.

If That Isn't Love...

Remember when I waited for your text every noon while you’re in school?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when we talked every night, till the morning sun comes out?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when I sing to you every night, till you fall asleep to my voice?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when I waited for you to finish work for hours without a word?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when I gave you a quick call every morning, so that my day will be good?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when we shared every food that we bought?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when I kept all the tabs for every time we went for a movie?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when I take you home with me, even when my mum knows who you are?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when I was really high and I counted the stars for you?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when you cuddle up to me and I kept saying “I love you”?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when I watch u sleeping right next to me without a sound?

If that isn’t love baby…

Remember when I run my fingers through your hair?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when I told you how awesome your hair smells?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when we exchanged sweater just so that I can have your smell and you can have mine?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when we sat together in the mall and played games in my phone?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when I ate your favorite food?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when I walked to your house?

If that isn’t love…

Remember when I told you, you meant the world to me baby…?

Remember when I have to go far and I cried really hard…?

Remember when every weekend I came back just for you…?

Remember when you’re the one I hold on to for the good times and bad times?

Remember when I wiped away your tears baby…?

Remember when I told you “I love you” for every time I touch you…?

Remember when I really don’t wanna let you go…?

Remember when I kneel down to my feet and begged you to stay…?

Remember when I kept texting and calling you even when you were not mine anymore…?

Remember when I told you I wanna live the rest of my life with you by my side…?

If this isn’t love baby… You can move on…

BUT I SWEAR I LOVE YOU PRINCESS…

My friends!

She's the sugar to my coffee!

There's been so many times at where I've needed you as my friend,
No matter what the reason is you'll be there till the end.
Every time i need to talk or I'm sad and feeling blue,
you understand, your honest and you'll give your point of view.
You always put me first if i need you to be there,
I appreciate you doing this, it shows how much you really care.
Your unconditional friendship showed me the person i am inside,

and just to be myself is something i never have to hide.
If you ever need anything, anytime day or night
I promise i will be there to try and make it right.
Cuz i hope i can do for you all the things you've done for me,
Cuz a true friend is what you forever will always be.